Today I woke up in a bad mood! This happens sometimes right? We go to bed perfectly fine, but, we wake the next morning and life feels shiz! Actually, that is NOT what happened, let’s rewind.
I woke up and my first thought was ‘Wow, I slept well, I bet today is going to be a good day‘. 20 minutes later, I was arguing with my partner about I don’t even know what and life felt rubbish! A series of ‘mini thoughts’ began, all of which, went something like; ‘Ugh, if only I made more money, my life would be much more entertaining‘ and ‘Ugh, I forgot I had run out of milk, now, I am going to have to nip to the shop before getting on a call with my client. I really should have done this last night. I always do stuff like this, I am so useless. If I could learn how to be more organised, my life would be better, easier somehow’
I didn’t actually have time to get to the shop as, by the time I had showered and got dressed, it was time for my call. The call went great, as in fact it always does. I love talking to Ross, really listening and connecting with him and finding out where he is at. A couple of times, I noticed my thought wandering somewhere else, like, ‘I better make sure I get the milk afterwards‘ and ‘I wonder if Ross can tell that I am in a bad mood‘ and then, connection between us would drop. I asked Ross to repeat what he had just that second said and explained that I had been distracted and I noticed Ross’ face relax. i guessed that he had in fact noticed that I wasn’t quite present and it had probably confused him, I mean, I normally always listen. A few minutes later, we were in deep connection, my mind had settled and the time we spent was beautiful, full of plans, ideas and space.
Our state of mind shifts constantly and it’s guided by a universal life flow, a life energy that is beyond our control. It is the same universal energy that grows trees and keeps our heart beating, drives the ocean waves and moves the earth around the sun. Try to control it and you’re going to lose! Ohhh, ok, so, it might appear that you can control it on occasions, you know, mindfulness, meditation, a glass of wine, a blazing row! All of these things are an attempt to change something that, in that very moment, we are forgetting that we don’t actually control or cause!
My initial assumption that my day was ruined because I had no milk, was me forgetting that not having milk has NO baring on my state of mind and, if it has no baring on it, it cannot change it! When I forget that, I might (as I did) berate myself for not having milk, for not being organised or caring or bothered and ALL of that, looks and feels like it’s because of the feelings I have.
Then I remember the truth; My feelings are only ever telling me one thing….that I am feeling thought in the moment! I am feeling my thinking, not ‘what’ I am thinking about! I had experienced a shift in mood, in mind, in feeling and I had attributed it to something outside of me, in this case, the lack of milk and the fact that I had been the one who forgot it. I was lost in my bad mood, however, my call went beautifully, go figure? I mean, why did the bad mood not affect the quality of the call?
Here’s why; Our state of mind is governed by universal energy and as such, it changes constantly. Because it was never caused or even about the lack of milk, or in fact, anything else outside of me, it could never be impacted by anything outside of me. What could have made that call less than it was, is if I had not understood this and had tried to change the mood. Instead, I just explained my distraction and made an effort to say connected to Ross, to listen and to be in a space with him. My mood is irrelevant and says nothing about my performance, or my clients or even my partner or the lack of milk.
Now, imagine an electricity current going from one end of the room, to the other. You know that YOU are not the source of the current right? Of course you do, it’s electricity, its created and governed by exactly the same universal energy that you are governed by. If you suddenly decided that the electricity was to blame for your mood, would you start to throw water over it? or, put your hand in it? I imagine that to be a resounding No! because, you understand, that’s just not how it works and that you’ll be not only wasting your time doing such a thing, but, it’s not going to be an effective means of getting rid of the current. In fact, it’s like to make the whole situation worse.
Well, trying to change you thoughts and feelings works on that principle too! You are putting your fingers in the machinery, when, you don’t actually have to do anything about something that you are not responsible for or the cause of. That electricity current might look like something beautiful in 5 minutes time, as opposed to something dangerous as it does right now. Still, it’s not your job to poke around with it. It’s your job to see that if you leave it alone, you’re still fine anyway, still free to continue going about doing whatever it is you are doing and the results you get, are not dependant on mood, thought, or the electricity current 🙂
Imagine how much time and energy you will have when you see the truth of how life works, how thought and feeling really work and how, non of that can determine what happens today, or any other day! <3